Thread: i am going to kill myself just want to get the reason out so here it is.?

ive been hanging on by a thread lately by telling my self it will g et better, but it wont its only got worse. im 16 male and have NO friends beens this way for a while and im so lonely ive been taking any drug i can to escape i would do anything by this point, i have no close family members, ive been being myself at school thinking i could make some friends but no(im not a 'lame' either all the cool kids do talk to me). i want to start hooking up with girls but none seem to like me im attractive but i have acne and wide woman hips with a small upper body. im so lonely it hurts and i cant take it anymore its not going to get better .ive always just wanted to live that life lots of friends girls like me . but no and my mom still hs acne and shes 30 and going to the gym wont make me look normal because the actual bone. tonight im taking a hundred benadryl to kill my self and i just wanted to get my story out before i did it.

If you're serious about ending it nothing I say will stop you, but firstly think about your mum..... how the hell do you think she'll feel about her son killing himself? You don't say that you don't get with her, so I assume you love your mum. Secondly, you are 16- bloody awful age that!! I hated being 16. Your body seems to do everything to make you hate it! Doesn't last forever, believe me... You will 'grow up' and get a better body shape and lose the spots- no doubt about it!! But thirdly & this is very important..... go to the doctors and tell him/her how you are feeling.... PLEASE!!!!! Don't try and handle it yourself.... you are depressed and you need help. ok? If they don't seem to understand or are sympathetic- see another doctor. Brilliant drugs are out now for acne, but you probably need antidepressants too. They take time, I've been on them a year now and are at last cutting down - I couldn't have got through my life this past 12 months without them. Now my life is not full of crap anymore- most of it was in my head anyway. So, please, please pick up that phone and call the doctors, please???

If this is serious, do not do it. Please. It gets better, trust me. It gets better! You haven't even lived yet, you're only 16. People soon grow up and you'll be accepted, and if people don't accept you, it's their loss. And girls? Pffsht. Who needs them? They just took my money and left for my friend. You'll be alright, just look at the positive side of things. Peace

I know how you feel and I'm pretty sure that I'm going to slit my wrist today with a razor blade

Please seek some help. You can get through this!

Death is not your answer!

I can relate to how you feel i lost my second baby through miscarriage a few days ago, i go to hospital monday to have his remains removed from me. I broke down at the hospital, signing the op form as it felt like i was signing his death warrent. But my son is already dead.

My heart is shattered and i wish i had died, but you see you will only hurt the ones you leave behind. How would you mum feel if she found you dead upstairs. How could you cope seeing her in that pain, a lady you love having her heart shattered to pieces, who will spend the rest of her life asking why and blaming herself for your death.

life may seem lonely and uncaring but life has its up's and downs and you will find that one special person who you fall head over in love with and this moment will seem a life time away. Seek help from family and the medical people. Death is far to final and your life has only just started. Think of all the wonderful thing you could experince. Take the bulls by the horns and live you life to the full, enjoy everything it has to offer and stop taking drugs, that will only drag you down and its hard to get up off the floor when you crash down on it.

I send you healing and blessings, im not into religion but even i need the help of the angels sometimes xxx

You do know that life gives each one of us something different to work with as we are growing up. Even though we try to fit in, and be part of the in crowd and popular enough to get a date, and to have buddies that hang around us all the time, for some of us that is not going to happen. In an ideal world that might happen but reality tells us that not everyone can be the most popular. So with that in mind, let's talk. First you need to get rid of the "worst" scenerio. Things can always get worse. What if you try and off yourself and you end up like a vegetable except you can comprehend everything and can't communicate it back. That is worse. And I do not want to end up like that and I am sure you don't either.So, let's deal with the real thing that is going on. Your body. It's shape, and your attitude about it. If you want your hips to look smaller(I have those big hips too), you do need to hit the weights a bit, or use your body weight at home in a workout to push your chest and upper body strength more and they will develop and balance your body out. It takes some time, but it is so worth it. Go to a gym and watch, guys there have all kinds of builds, beginners will look like you. I am serious! Okay, acne: This is a part of growing up. Look around you..... Do you see all the other 16 year old males with perfectly clear skin? NO. Proactive is a good start, you can keep your face clean, and with time it will clear up. Now let's talk about your brain. Quit being so HARD ON YOURSELF. If you have people that talk to you and say HI on the way by in school, you have it half whipped. Get rid of the negative attitude,people might sense it and it is a turn off. If you are working on offering the best you can be, then be positive. People are attracted to positive people. Let your inner light shine through. You obviously like people, let it show. Now..... I hope I have helped you. I was a nurd, book geek, and not popular. And when I got out into the real world....it didn't matter. If you are a good person it will show! Positive energy to you!

Don't do it.

I'm sorry that you've been having a hard time. But things won't magically get better on their own. You have to work towards it. I've been in your situation before. My first few years of high school were full of depression and suicidal thoughts. Because I did not handle my emotions and feelings in a healthy way, I am left looking at the evidence of my suicidal attempts everyday.

Killing yourself seems like the only way you can be happy, right? What we seem to forget is how it would impact others. Your mom loves you very much, and even these people you say aren't your friends would be heart broke if you were dead. If you don't have a reason to live, live for other people. Killing yourself if a selfish act, and even you won't benefit from it.

Depending on the drugs you've been taking...they can possibly be depressants, making you feel even worse. Be careful. I don't know you but i genuinely care about you. I'll be your friend, feel free to talk to me. I won't be burdened by your problems and I will listen to you. You can find me on my facebook or email me. My email address is rachelschoff@gmail.com. I am actually at school right now and I do not have enough time to write anymore.

I'm 17, a senior in high school. And I'm so glad I stuck around this far. I hope you feel better.

Before you do anything else, read the sites I linked to. Suicide is not the answer but I been there and I know how hard it is to believe when people say things like that. For what do we know, right?
Read and at least give it another 24 hours before you decide, there is help out there.

I don't know you, but when I read that I started crying. I felt like this just weeks ago. Please, please don't kill yourself. Some things in this world are so depressing, that we actually do want to end our lives. But what makes life worth living, is the climb. Please, tell someone how depressed you are. I know that it's going to be hard, but if you can't say it to their face, just have then read what you wrote on here. or you could even write them a letter. You could tell your doctor, teacher, best friend, parents, coach, or even your school guidance counselor. Just lease tell someone, this WILL make you feel a LOT better. At first, I really didn't want to talk about it, but then I finally found the nerve to do it; and you will too. I am now much happier now that I told someone. It just makes you feel like you're not alone anymore. Knowing that someone cares and is fighting through this with you is a huge sense of relief. It will just lift massive weights off of your shoulders. You know, when I felt suicidal, I didn't realize how many people would miss me if I were gone. I felt like nobody would even notice. After I told someone, those feelings went away. Because now I realize that people really do care about me, even when they don't show it. People who care about you are like stars. Sometimes you don't see them, but you know that they are always there. I really hope that you don't commit suicide, I don't even know you, but I would care extremely. I really wish the best for you. Hope everything works out okay. And remember, people really do love YOU.

Websites that I think would help you, they helped me a lot:

http://www.yourlifeyourvoice.org/Pages/default.aspx
http://www.twloha.com/index.php