Thread: i am going to kill myself just want to get the reason out so here it is.?

For heavens sake you are ONLY 16! I didn't get a boyfriend until I was 31! Now I have been married to him for 15 years! Why so impatient? Why are you ready to throw your life away in an instant when you have no idea what is to come?! I hope you find what you are looking for once your dead.

Slap yourself and think again.

Listen I'm not sure who you are but your story touched my heart. I'm 13 and trust me I KNOW HOW YOU FEEL because I was there. My friends did all these things that in my mind seemed so cool and fun.All I wanted was to be like them, not the ugly unwanted thing that followed them. I wanted to fit in and be seen so badly I became one of them, and I mean I tried dressing like them talking and acting like them. I kept this act up for a long time till I realized that I wasn't myself anymore. And though THEY liked me more I just became a trouble maker, lying to my parents getting into fights and causing so much drama I couldn't think straight. I became 'somewhat' suicidal, meaning I had to fight off the urge and want, this turned into depression, all starting at the young age of maybe 11 or 12.
But soon I found help, I found a religion not like any religion you've ever heard of. There are actually people, teens there that listen to you and want to hear and help you. They were called Jehovah's Witnesses, they taught me that someone was always looking at me, watching me, and loving me for me not for what I claimed to be, but for the person I could no longer see. After, my mom had me study with a very nice girl who showed me what a real friend was like and introduced me to a bunch of other friends in the Hall ( a Kingdom Hall or Hall is were Jehovah's Witnesses went it was kind of like church). Soon I was going out every weekend and I felt needed.
My life now couldn't be better. So my advice to you would be to find the nearest Kingdom Hall of Jehovah's Witnesses, and I can guarantee that if you told someone about you problem no one will look down on you or tell you something that won't be helpful. In fact the people there will bring you in with open arms and warm smiles. Meanwhile the literature there helped me too. You can find some of there magazine and books at www.jw.org or www.watchtower.org