Thread: Is this normal :'( ........?

I have given up on life, I cry every day i listen to dark music and iv thought about running away, I don't smile anymore, i just don't care i used to be a straight A student and iv gone down to D's i feel numb with emotion and im always tired i cant concentrate or make decisions , i sit in my room in the dark on my computer listening to music on full on my headphones.. i feel worthless and a waist of space everyday i go into school i put on a fake smile and act like im ok but inside im dying everyone in my family has noticed iv been really down and that i don't smile anymore but they make a joke about it and don't take me seriously when i sit on my own and don't talk to people , I don't go out with my friends anymore and i slit my wrists , im going through phases of NOT eating at all and starving my body down to the bare necessities and then i WILL eat but eat to much food and stuff myself until im sick , im tired and i don't sleep i just toss and turn, only 1 person on this planet understands what im feeling inside but i only talk to him some days in school , i have this feeling of guilt on me and its weighing me down in life, i am on yahoo searching for answers because i cant talk to people i just cant ask for help, and i never speak in class even when i don't understand something ill just keep quite im asking for advice not a life lesson please help i don't know how much i can take Listen to Bullet by hollywood undead... and you'll know exactly what im going through :/

Hey shannon,
it's really upsetting to read this.. Why are u depressed? What is it that troubles u?? I hope u wouldn't mind telling me, i really hope i can make u feel better and take better care of urself.. Feel free to contact me smile

I used to be similar but I can't compare myself as your situation is different to mine, did anything happen to trigger this off or did it just happen slowly? I would first try and arrange things to do with friends, you don't have to tell them but find someone kind and who is understanding. I know its hard to talk to your family and I personally talk to someone who didn't know me or someone who wouldn't be able to judge me or ruin a friendship.

One thing that I did was go on a run everyday, I know it sounds weird but it helps to clear your head and you feel good afterwards, maybe if you listend to a differnt genre of music and ate steady meals your eating problems would solve themselves. As for your wrists I find it hard to advise people because everyone does it for different reasons but if you sort the other problems out first that could help you on that one. I think that although it is difficult if you plan your day and have a routine things will fall in to place.

I hope you start to feel more happy soon

ahhh. I'm used to be like you, what I can say is find some hobby to distract you. You need to find something to motivate yourself like playing games. you said you like to listen to music, have you try to become an audiophile? it's okay, everyone have guilt deep inside but you need to keep your head up and push yourself to become a better person. It's normal completely normal. how old are you by the way?